Tuesday, May 23, 2017

EVERY DAY YOU LAST IS SOMETHING TO BE PROUD OF



Note: I know the above song is not by Chris.
But this is the song I'm listening to while I write this poem.
Same era.
Same sadness.


I hear Chris Cornell has died
I say that's too bad
But I feel distant from his state of mind
Somebody should have told him to chill out
It's not as bad as it seems
Don't take life so seriously
Just enjoy it, man
But then three days pass
And you're in the dark cloud
And you realize it's not been so long
Not so long since you've been in this cloud
You thought you had risen above it
Transcended it
And you felt bad for Chris
Because he hadn't ascended to that level
But you're fuckin back in it man
And you realize you haven't been out long
You thought you were out
But you're back in the thick
People say it's good to spread awareness
Yeah we're all fucking aware
Depression exists
It's real, nobody denies that
But there's no easy way out
Some people make it
And some people don't
Chris didn't make it
But he made it longer than many
He was in his 50s
That's a pretty good battle as far as I'm concerned
Lost the war, I guess
But won several battles
Nothing to be so sad about
I mean, everyone loses the war
Whether it's by natural causes
Or self-inflicted
The longer you can hold out until nature takes you
The better
But if you don't last
It's nothing to be so sad about
Or anybody should be sad about
You've still won several battles
Every day you last is something to be proud of

Sunday, May 14, 2017

SIPPING ON A CUP OF DUNKINS

sipping on a cup of Dunkins...I'm torn with conflicting emotions...it has a strong scent of perfume on it...I'm assuming because whoever prepared it was wearing strong perfume...my coffee cup smells like pretty woman...but, on the other hand, I'm not sure I want my coffee cup smelling this way...I think I just want it smelling like coffee...I'm having trouble deciding whether I like this

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

LATENT VIRUS

It's been hiding out ever since the 1930s in Germany
And before that it had been hiding out since the 1600s
Witch Trials
Or maybe not even that long back
It is a virus that hides in the human DNA
It hides for years
But then when our immune system weakens
It seizes the opportunity
Comes out to play
Wreaks some havoc
Eventually it gets contained
Goes back into latency
And waits for its next opportunity

AND THEN CNN SAID SAID UNTO THE PEOPLE: "BOW YOUR HEAD AND PRAY TO POP CULTURE"

I watch CNN's special on the 80s
They're telling me everything important to know about the 80s decade
This includes TV shows
And other pop-culture
And then I realize it's all bullshit
They're presenting what I should know
And they want me to kneel
And show reverence to this pop culture
This is what matters, they say
But I realize none of it matters
It's all bullshit
They're programming my mind, I realize
Love pop culture
Bow your head
And pray
To pop culture
Condition the consumer
Condition me to consume pop culture
I shake that conditioning
And realize there's things that matter
But none is being discussed in this program
This is mind control
Thanks CNN
But no thanks
In fact
Fuck you CNN
I'm onto your bullshit
I'm not falling for your brainwashing
There's other shit that matters
Not this shit you're telling me matters
You say this is human excellence
But I say
No
We can do better

WHAT WAS RAPED OF ME WAS MY MORALITY

And then you take a look at yourself
You say, damn, I've made the ultimate sacrifice
I mean, I've made sacrifices before this
But this is the ultimate
I've gone so far down this "divine" path
And what was raped of me at the very end
Was my morality

What was raped of me
Was my morality

I've been demoralized
And I say, man, was it worth it
Probably not
This seems all very wrong
Nothing is worth being demoralized
Right
But then you think about your idea of morality
Have you been demoralized according to God
Or is it according to man
If it's the latter then I'm good
If it's the former then this has been all wrong

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

THE GOOD SAMARITAN

Being the Good Samaritan is good
But I know why I'm being so good
Because my self-esteem is so bad
And I'm doing so much good
To justify my existence
If my self-esteem were good
I wouldn't be doing as much good
So am I really good
Or not so good after all

Saturday, April 8, 2017

OUR REALITY'S BEING WRITTEN FOR US

Donald Trump wins election
Russians may have hacked Hillary's emails
The Russians were influencing the election
Trump may be an operative for the Russians
Trump sex tape
Golden showers
MI6 spies
Dossier
Trump being blackmailed by the Russians
No, not blackmail, scratch that
Trump has business ties with Russians
No, blackmail
No, business ties
General Flynn talking sanctions with the Russians
Something's rotten in Denmark
More Trump aides have ties with Russians
Entire cabinet has ties with Russians
Trump definitely colluding with Russians

Now for ACT III
Assad has dropped chemical bombs on Syrians
Innocent civilians and children suffering horribly
President Trump between rock and hard place
Because Russians support Assad and his regime
Will Trump do nothing which means he's colluding with Russians
Or will he bomb Syria to show he has no ties with Russians

When did reality unravel in this climactic progression of events
It seems unnatural
It's like somebody's writing all this
Hammering out plot point, after plot point
And then you realize
Fuck
Maybe somebody IS writing it all out
And our reality isn't actual reality
It's being written for us
And is thus unreality

Who is the author of this great narrative
I do not know
But I'll tell you one thing
It's not God