MALWARE

MALWARE
by matt burns

I’ve tried to reset
I’ve tried to cleanse
But it continues to cling to me

The intense rage comes and goes
The intense depression comes and goes
One minute I think I’m ok
But then I’m erratic again
Illogical
Irrational
My feelings
My emotions
My behaviors
Make no sense
Almost like they’re not even coming from me
But an external entity

That girl gave me malware
And no matter what I do
I can’t get rid of it

IT'S OK TO BE MISERABLE

DON’T FIGHT THE MISERY

by matt burns

I know that I’m supposed to love myself

And I’m supposed to think positive

And I’m supposed to be happy

But there are days

When I’m really quite miserable

Maybe not even for a specific reason

Maybe I’m hung over

Or maybe I ate some Hot Pockets 

Or some other microwaveable crap with additives

And artificial flavorings 

That tend to make me cranky…

Who knows why I’m miserable today

But for some reason I am

And I think I’m not alone

I think a lot of you out there are miserable some days

Well, sirs and ma’ams,

I can’t tell you how much better I feel

When I just admit that I’m miserable

And I decide to be OK with being miserable

And not fight it

Just say

I am miserable and it is what it is

Most of my pain

Most of my anxiety

Is born out of me fighting the misery

I’m ashamed that I’m miserable

I’m ashamed that I’m being negative

I’m ashamed that I’m not thinking positively

Because, fuck, we’re all supposed to be positive!

We’re all supposed to love ourselves

And be happy all the fucking time

That Pharrell Williams guy says BE HAPPY

Do what Pharrell says!

But I’m not happy all the fucking time

And I’m not going to fight it

Because fighting it makes me more miserable

And borderline insane

I am miserable

And I’m OK with it

It’s OK to be this way

Be miserable

It’s fine