HELLO MORTALITY

shaking like crazy
muscles so weak
can hardly walk
heart racing
dizziness
fighting to stay conscious
feel so hot
nurses so cold
borderline sociopaths
they probably need to be
they see so much sadness
pain
and death
they must turn off their empathy
it's the only way to function
I look up above the door
there's a crucifix
it's there as a focal point
something to look at
while you endure pain
or while you die
hello, mortality
you were an abstraction before
but now I've seen you up close
you never scared me before
I believed in the afterlife
heaven even
but now that I've met you
experienced you first-hand
you scare the shit out of me
I do not want to die